I was going to post some pictures but I just found out I can do it from this server, so I think I'm goint to get another one but I'll keep posting here until I'm sure I can do it.
Saturday, August 23, 2003
Olá !
Now that I know that my parents don’t want even out of state I don’t have another option but do as they please, as usual. Hopefully one day I’ll get to do things the way I wish. Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about trying this really tough test to a diplomat’s school, I don’t know much yet but being a diplomat could be a really nice thing, but I’ve heard the test is just one of the most competitive in the country, so I’ll have to study as hard as I never did in life to pass it. I think that you need to know two languages by the time you finish the course, something I would do willingly since my father doesn’t want to pay for another language course until I’m at college, he’s crazy by the way, he wants me to go to college, go to this course about cinema he found out and he would let me go to the language course, not that I’m complaining but that seems a lot for, nothing I couldn’t handle but it’s something that doesn’t look like my father at all, so there’s probably a lie involved in this issue because the only thing that troubles me is that each thing is a completely part of the city.
As many of you may know, last week the Pan American Olympiads finished in the Dominican Republic and now, on 2007 it will take place nowhere else than Rio de Janeiro, not the state, the city of Rio, which is really nifty! I just think it’s going to be one of the greatest things ever done for this city, the politicians are moving, they’re improving the city in all ways possible which is just a delight given the social issues we’re dealing with here, poverty, violence and all that junk. But the nicest part is that I’ll probably be here and will be able to see some of my favorite sports live, that’s going to be AWESOME, I can barely wait till 2007. Hopefully my family will be able to move to a better situated house by then. I don’t have many complaints about the neighborhood but I’ve just had enough, it’s far from everything, I wish I could live downtown, with those skyscrapers, museums and all that jazz, but there’s not good places there, all apartments are really tiny and after all I’d like to live in a house or in an apartment in front of the beach. =D
It’s just impressive how I can see things I never noticed before I left. One of the things that gets me mad is my father, there’s something about the Souza part of the family that is really AWFUL, they think they’re the greatest, completely flawless and that they can convince you of anything, for instance, my father and siblings mess up things every now and then, but since they think they’re never wrong they try to convince you that you were the reason for the mistake. My mom is going crazy with that, I really don’t know how she handles it. My siblings are JUST like my father in every meaning of the word, and all my uncles and aunts are just the same, it’s got to be something genetically transmitted. I’m creating a theory about it all... =D
Last Wednesday I went to the movies to see Tomb Raider: The Cradle of Life, or something like it. I adored it but since I’m well known fan of the game there’s not much credit in my words. The last good movies I saw were Charlotte Gray (I love spy movies and since this is during the Second War it’s just MARVELOUS, not to mention the fact that I do like Kate); and Midnight Express, it’s a really good and old movie, it’s okay it’s shocking as well but I liked it. It’s really deep and crazy. It’s a pity Brad Davis died.
I have to go now, I still have a lot of reading to do, still on GWTW. I’m just loving it, Scarlett O’Hara is just a great character.
I wish that these last days of summer are good for you because this winter is NO GOOD.
Miss y’all
Sunday, August 17, 2003
Hello !
It’s been a while since I last wrote anything...
Now I’m 18 and nothing has changed, I ate my birthday cake for a week mostly after every meal because a lot of people left before we started eating it so there was a lot left and since it was made with some really great chocolate. It was great.
Last Sunday was Father’s day down here and we had a lunch together and then my parents and sister went to visit that friend’s of hers. She’s doing pretty well if you ask me, she’s even seeing two guys in the hospital, so I think she’s going to survive, she only broke an elbow and some of her pelvis but she’s done some repairing surgeries and is going home today. Anyway since it was Father’s Day I met a childhood friend and ex-neighbor that came to visit his grandfather because now he lives next to us where this friend and his family used to live before they moved. It was GREAT ! He was my FIRST friend EVER. I remember the day we met on our neighboring balconies and after we talked I went happily tell my mother about it. When he moved it was really sad because we used to see each other every single day because we studied at the same school and all but I think that we (my other neighbors and I) got over it. So it was a day to remember of the time when there were no worries about tomorrow but what would we play together downstairs (since we live in an apartment we had to go downstairs). =D
Last Friday was my sister’s 16th birthday and we had a get together again it was very interesting because for the after party two neighbors of mine stayed until almost 3 in the morning talking about childhood things, relationships and things our sibling do when they’re sleeping. It was hilarious ! I know them since EVER for me, we grew up together since we have almost the same age, she has 19 but is only some months older than me and this guy that is 18 like me. I loved it but it’s weird to see how far we are from each other, we went on very distinct ways but we always have some good time when we’re together.
Now I’m doing some community work with the church my mother and sister go to. On Thursdays right after lunch my sister and I go there to pack food to distribute to the poor people that live around the church and are part of the “congregation”, it’s quite fast now that I’m used to it. And on Saturdays mornings my sister and I go there by lunch time to distribute soup to the families that can’t go there during the week or that go there twice a week just to eat there. They have little kids from kindergarten to pregnant teenagers and elderly people and some beggars. It’s really nice to know that you can help in some way but I still feel like I could do some more but anyway it makes me really sad to see those teenager mothers, it’s awful to expect a child to look after another child, they’re just so careless in some points. There’s a girl that had her first baby when she was 12 and now that she’s 18 she’s expecting her THIRD child and she doesn’t even have a husband. It’s just BAD !
I think I told some people that my sister had a boyfriend and that I was really OK with it but since I got home I found, through my sister, that they broke up because he got engaged to a girl that is from his church (people here don’t often marry people from other churches) and now he wants my sister to go to his weeding. Can you just believe that? My sister finds out that the real reason he never came here on weekends was because he had to visit his real girlfriend and now he expects to praise the Lord about it. The worst thing about it is that it’s just the latest in “fashion” here, she got another boyfriend after months in sorrow and finds out that he also had a fiancée. And that’s because they’re not married yet? Now, there’s not a single person in the world that can convince me that they’ll change after marriage. It’s just not possible and that’s because they go to church three times a week or something and look at you like they’re better than you just because they go to that church. I just ABHOR it !
Oh! The other day at a neighbor’s birthday party a girls asked why I stopped dancing and she also said that I was the best dancer she ever SAW, so I answered in a mocking tone: “You haven’t gone out lately, have you?”, but my ego just went up with the stars after that, but it’s said how my parents would just have a heart attack if I said I wanted to be a dancer, but since I don’t really want to that’s not going to happen. And once this week my father said I swim flawlessly and since that’s the only compliment my father has ever made about me, that’s something I needed to say but he dared to say that I didn’t take it seriously and I said that I only stopped going because he didn’t pay for it on time. NEVER. How I love the time when I had school in the mornings, Spanish and English Courses, gym, dance classes and swimming classes, that was GREAT but then I had to chose for my language courses because they’re more important to me…
I need to go.
Miss y’all.
Friday, August 01, 2003
What a relief!
Today was a very intense day. I wake up with some bombastic news. My sister's best friend fell from the forth floor. Questions about the reasons for it since we know that girl since my sister's first grade, she's like my sister, you know? She's always smiling, telling jokes and all that jazz. So, while I was preparing lunch my mom and I waited for my sister to arrive from school to tell her the "nasty" news. My mom was crying like if it was one of her own asking heavens for an answer, in other word, a very dramatic day. I remember of last year when our neighboor did the same and I had to help with the comforting, that was one of my most life-changing experiences through my, yet, short life. That was a day never to forget, there are few day that I don't think about it.
So, I had to comfort my sister, that was desperate for an answer since she talked to her on the previous day and they had made plans to go to the movies this week and all. So when my father got home they all went to the hospital and they just got here, they saw her even though they were, supposedly, not allowed to visit her and she is FINE, isn't that awesome? I am so happy for it.
I know it's not one of the greates things to share but I need to share with someone, you know, without looking as if I was talking her down. By the way, she doesn't remember a thing about last night, she's going to be able to walk and all tha jazz of the living things.
Thank you for listening, I needed it.